There are so many surprising or unbelieveble things have happend with me. Too many things happened which involve with me indicate that my life is not smooth and peace. I almost do anything running out my expected...I always think I have bad luck. Here is one thing, which just happened before I came to American, prove I am really out of luck. I studied English in order to get visa in Beijing where the city is 6-hour away from my hometown-Zhenzhou. So, when I fishished each term, I would go back my hometown. Coincidence was whenever the leaving form Beijing and Zhengzhou or the arriving to these two places, it would rain! Everytime! More unreasonable was sometimes raining without any signs and the weather is very shiny. I experienced long-term hard time for getting the visa. I failed three times. Actually, I don't have any religions. However, I complied with my fried's suggestion to go to the famous temple for praying the next time. Even though it was the first time to pray in temple, I went to there with pretty sincere in my heart. Therefore, it rained when I just arrieved there. So we had to buy a umbrella to keep praying. The consequence of the next day about going to visa was I exact failed. It is so despair. I decided to give up, and booked ticked to back my hometown. But I didn't tell my family and my friends because I almost crumbled and I want hidened myself. Still it rained with shiny weather when I took out my luggage from my apartment. I looked up the sun. She seemed to be laughing at me. I cried! After I arrieved my hometown almost ten miniuts later, it began to rain. I din't have any feeling already... Now, whenever I recall that period. I just laugh.

As you see, this is the most weried food I ate before. It is a kind of cockroach but live in water. When I travelled with my parents to a city where is beside the sea. Of course, people usually eat various seafoods. Most of the them I cannot get close to see and even to eat. Once I ate in a restaurant, the waiter take the dishes on the table in front of us. Some of the seafoods are alive or raw. One of them is "water cockroach". Actualy, they are raw. I did not expect to eat it, but my father push me to try. After eating it, I ran in to restroom and throated out. Disgusting... However, like this kind of insects include high protein. They are called healthy food.

The most of Asia country such as Viet Nam, Thai, Burma and so on, they eat fried-spider, fried-centipede, fried -scorpion and wine-soaked scorpion or rat. It is sound treaten to me when I first heared these. I can image how the feeling is when put them in to mouth. I cannot afford it. I will never try them. But when I was child, I didn't afraid any insects. Sometimes my friends and I would like going to catch some insects and eat them! For instance, fried larvi-cicada is my favourite food and even now!

My life and Death

Life and Death cannot be cantroled by myself. If I will died today, there is only thing I want to be known is I was loved by my family and my friends. In my novel class, we are studying "Big Fish." I also wathed the movie. The main actor in the novel, Edward tell a lot of tall taile stories and jokes to make people happy. In his told story, he was a great man. He is not only charm with human but also charm with animal. In the truth, when he was ill because he is too old, and he has to waiting for death coming on the bed, he talked with his son-William. "How can be a great man..." William is asked by his father. He answered that, “ If a man is loved by his son, I will be called great man..." For my case, I wish I can be loved by my family at least, now matter what I was great or not. I spent my whole life with my "family"---the period of living with my parents and the periord of my children anmy husband living with me. If I was loved by them, I have nothing to regret even if I die. Morover, If I were rich enough, I wish I can use majotity of my properties to do a lot of charity. Thus, at least, I can feel fulfill that I use my limited ability to help most people who need help. About my legacy, I will not left all of them to my children because I already investted enough for them. Even though I love them, I want them use their own power to grow independently. Therefore, I wish my legacy can be donated to charity. Actully I do not want be wrote about some details of my life on my gravestone, only " my name " and someone else who love me.

View of Americans in China

There are many stereotypes that Chinese people have about Americans. Some of them also are what I had before I came here. Most Chinese people think that black Americans are tall and good at basketball because there are so many black players in the NBA. Of course, this is not true and there are many black people who are horrible at basketball, isn't it? The stereotype of Chinese people view American people, generally is rich and free. Let me see, I don't know how to say, because the first impression of American people of mine is their lives are leisurely and colorful. They have their own car easily as Chinses people have their own bikes. There are many Chinese have "dream of American". They think that living in American will change one's life. (I mean life will get better). Also, Some people think American people they even have their own guns especially within people with black skin. Even now, I still afraid of touching with black Americans. In my childhood, when Chinese people began to watch foreign TV series and movies, people always wondered why foreign actors or actress looked so similar, and we used to mix who is who within the screen, even nowadays. I think all of these kind of stereotypes are affectted by American movies. Also I read an article on American people's relationship is very coldhearted seems like friend-benefit(of course I don't mean the slang). They become friends just because their benefit. But when I touched American people personally, I chaged my view. Because the U.S naton make up of many races. I can say it is a color nation. Some people say American black people are rude seldom education, coursing crime.....something like that, but not really like the people say.

Flag of China

This is the Flag of the People's Republic of China which was adopted in Septemper, 1949 (the day of the founding of the People's Republic of China). Chinese flag has two basic color, red background and gold-yellow stars. In the uper left , there are five stars. The bigger one represents the leadership of the Communist of Party of China and it is arounded by four small stars that represent the chinese peopler or four occupations most esteemed by the Communist Party of China, which are farmers, workers, teachers, and soldiers. An interpretation under a more historical context is the four stars represent the traditional four categories of the people in the state, which are Workers (gong, 工), Farmers (nong, 农), Intellectual (shi, 士), and Businessmen (shang, 商) By the way, our flag is flew on Tian'anmen Square which is a historical place in Beijing, and our flag-raising ceremony is very solemn and awe-inspiring. It will be raised along with the sun-raising every morning at Tian' an Men Square.

This is Flag of Republic of China. There are A red field, with a blue canton containing a 12-ray white sun. This flag flew over Mainland China until 1949, and is presently flown in Taiwan, and other islands under then control of ROC. This flag is used from 1928. Unfortunately, there is still a current big problem between China and Taiwan.

hardsships trip for getting VISA

First of all, I want to say, that was so stressed and unforgetble when I try get visa of Unite State. During that periord, I have ever been to American Embassy four times. Fortunately, I got visa at fourth! I was so exciting! Acctually, I prepared for the visa by half a year in Beijing, I studyed really hard I think. I admire the reason of failing at first time is my own personality that I am very easy to get nevous when being interviewed. But, for another reason, they want my detail document paper about my transfer credits letter. In fact, the SIUC has never send any letter to me about my transfer credit, I told them true. But they rejected me finally. Second time, I choosed a best day to be ambassy and prayed in temple the day before interview day. Unforrunally, I still failed, because the guys, who interviewed before me, wrangled with our officer and made him very angry so that affect on me. The officer seems to be annoyed to keep talking with next person. He refused me as a same question about my creidit. After I came out with crying, I found I lost my phone! My heart and mind like crashed accident. That is so terrible day!!! The third time, I was deceived by a personal visa agent. They made my appointment as a business affairs and didn't tell me. I was sure I did really good during interviewing. I just cofused the failed reason for a long time. I fall to the lowest ebb after that. I can not afford it and have hidden myself for several days until I found the reason that made me unable either to laugh or to cry. So, I explained to officer an fourth time hoestly, they consent me finally. In additon, I spent a lot money for interviewing, but it is worth for the results. Therefore, that was a pretty hardships period for me.

Untitle

Before I came here, I always spend my Valentin's Day with my family even though I've already fall in love with a boy. Because my parents are conservative, so I can't let them know I was in loving with someone. Especially some sensitive festival like Valentine's Day, I have to stay at home to assume that I still was single. I was so helpless but I would keeping sending message with him secretly. For all of this reason, we had to spend our valentin day in advance. Nothing specific about gift, that is very commen such as couple rings, flowers or chocolate. Acctually, our love can be called pure love... Now, I am in USA as freedom and I disapointed my parent...I admire I am self-cotrolless girl, and afraid of lonliness especially after left with my familly... I was so lucky to meet him. I am enjoying our happiness because he came through into my life. We just spent a perfect Valentin's Day.